Devilishly Red

Today is my very last day as a twentysomething “girl”. I was too consumed by my newly acquired job woes to fret over it until it hit me a few minutes ago.

I’m going to be 30 tomorrow.

And I’ll no longer be in my twenties anymore. The last time I had such strong sentiments on my birthday was ten years ago, when I was about to turn 20. Back then I was bothered by the fact that I’d no longer be a teenager and that I had to leave the comfort of school life to start working. Fast forward ten years later, nothing much has changed and unfortunately, I’m still figuring out what I want to do with my life. I’m definitely older but I’m not so sure if I’ve grown any wiser.

I don’t know what’s eating me exactly. Probably the lack of achievement? I think of what I’ve done and achieved over the past ten years and I could barely come up with five items. Did I just waste ten years of my youth doing nothing? I really don’t know and I reckon this is why I feel so perturbed. Do you feel the same when you hit the big three O?

Come to think of it, it’s funny how we get all bothered and emotional at turning 30. Why not fret when we turn 25? Or 28 for that matter? So what if you turn 30? Do you feel or look any different compared to when you were 28? Ok granted, I’m quite certain I was a few kilogrammes lighter two years ago but well, you get my point. Starting from today, I’m going to try to live my life to the fullest. I’ll make sure I don’t come back ten years later and lament that I’ve wasted another ten years of my life doing nothing.

So yeah, happy 30th birthday to me! I think I should go indulge myself and celebrate! Woohoooooo!

Guess what, I’ve been neglecting my blog again. I’m now on the train, waiting for it to leave Marina Bay station and wishing my feet don’t hurt so much. My new pair of heels are seriously killing my feet! So much so that I had to take the train heading towards Marina Bay to get a damn seat! Urgh!
 
Anyway, I’ve found a job. It’s a 3-month contract HR job with the possibility of conversion to a permanant placement if I do well enough to impress them. I’m almost one week into the job and suffice to say the only thing I like about it so far is the location. Speaks volumes, doesn’t it?

Now I’m hoping the next three months will fly by quickly. I’m still very much undecided if I want to continue doing HR. In my current job, I realised to my chagrin that I’m already beginning to dread going to work and that I have absolutely no enthusiasm in learning the ropes. What’s going on?

All I can do now is to persevere for the next three months and hope the situation picks up! Go me!