To those few people who still reads my blog, I’m sorry for yet another long absence. I was offered a 6-month contract job back in May and I’m now into the fourth month of my contract. The chances of me getting converted to a permanent employee is rather high but to be honest I’m not sure if I’m going to accept the permanent role. After three months in my current job, I can affirm that there’s no such thing as a perfect job in this world.
My new boss is a really nice person to work for and I now work in a team with three other colleagues. For those who know me, this is important to me as I didn’t have that kind of support in my previous job. I like the casual environment and fun culture that’s associated with the company. It’s also one of the few companies that I’ve always wanted to join. So what’s holding me back from committing myself to the role you ask?
The job itself.
Long story short, I’m now responsible for staffing and I have to say I’m not comfortable in this role at all. I have no problems dealing with candidates and new hires but the one thing I can’t do is to build rapport with the hiring managers. It’s just not in me to be out mingling and talking with people. I don’t like to be out at the front line ninety percent of the time. I don’t like having to act interested in front of people I don’t really care about. I like to be safely ensconced in my cubicle working in front of the computer without being disturbed. I’m perfectly capable of interacting with people but I don’t like to be out chatting with people all the time. Do I make sense?
The thought of having to partner the hiring managers and building a relationship with them stresses me up. It’s not something that I enjoy doing at all. I’m aware that this whole thing is ironic because I now work in great team but the role is not suitable for me. Life would be perfect if I’m in charge of a different portfolio instead of recruitment.
Moving on to a lighter note – I’ll be traveling to Seoul with the Val, Shir and Koreen in three weeks’ time. It’s going to be my first trip to South Korea and I’m really looking forward to it. I’m tempted to say I’ll do a trip summary when I’m back but well you know me. So yeah, we’ll see how it goes.
I can’t quite believe we’re almost halfway through January and Chinese New Year is less than one month away. I’m panicking because I don’t have time to do spring cleaning! In fact, I don’t even have time to think about Chinese New Year. The past few months had been crazy for me at work and it’s only going to get worse. Much worse.
If I’m lucky, I’d be able to take a breather in April. Yes, you heard me right – April. That’s four bloody more months to go and I really don’t know how to get through this. I don’t know if I’d be able to remain sane and hang on till I get a new job. I’ve never been so bogged down by work before in my life.
Maybe to others I’m just a weak and incompetent employee who’s unable to cope with stress, or someone who flees at the first sight of trouble. Ok, I have to admit there’s a sliver of truth in that statement but I’m seriously sick of my job. I’ve been in this job for only 14 months but things are already getting repetitive. How on earth can someone stay in this job for more than two years? You’re required to do the same projects every single year and there’s no way to delegate the work to someone else because there’re only two people in the department – you and your boss. In this situation, who do you think gets the honour of doing all the dirty jobs?
Well, at least now I know why my predecessor didn’t stay very long in the company either.