Devilishly Red

I can’t quite believe we’re almost halfway through January and Chinese New Year is less than one month away. I’m panicking because I don’t have time to do spring cleaning! In fact, I don’t even have time to think about Chinese New Year. The past few months had been crazy for me at work and it’s only going to get worse. Much worse.

If I’m lucky, I’d be able to take a breather in April. Yes, you heard me right – April. That’s four bloody more months to go and I really don’t know how to get through this. I don’t know if I’d be able to remain sane and hang on till I get a new job. I’ve never been so bogged down by work before in my life.

Maybe to others I’m just a weak and incompetent employee who’s unable to cope with stress, or someone who flees at the first sight of trouble. Ok, I have to admit there’s a sliver of truth in that statement but I’m seriously sick of my job. I’ve been in this job for only 14 months but things are already getting repetitive. How on earth can someone stay in this job for more than two years? You’re required to do the same projects every single year and there’s no way to delegate the work to someone else because there’re only two people in the department – you and your boss. In this situation, who do you think gets the honour of doing all the dirty jobs?

Well, at least now I know why my predecessor didn’t stay very long in the company either.

I guess I got bitten by the procrastination bug afterall. I’ve been back from Taiwan for over a month now but I haven’t even sorted out the photos taken during the trip, let alone write a trip report. Even my mum has started to ask why I’m taking so long to make a copy of the photos in a CD for her. What can I say? I’m a bonafide procrastinator.

I had a great time during the trip but I found out that travelling with my parents requires a high level of patience. There were times when I almost wanted to tear my hair out but I still enjoyed their company (well, mostly). I’m really glad we went on the trip together and I’ll definitely do it again.

I can’t quite believe 2012 is coming to an end in six weeks’ time. I’ve been working at the company for a year now but somehow I still feel I’m new there. Maybe because I keep to myself at work and I don’t really make an effort to mix around with my colleagues. I know this isn’t a good thing but I just can’t seem to fit into the culture. I can’t pinpoint the problem but maybe it’s just me trying to create an excuse to leave the job next year. Yes, I do need a change of environment and I really hope I’ll be able to find something better next year.

Oh yes, did I mention that my birthday was yesterday? I’m another year older! Now this is really depressing because another year has passed but I’m still stuck in a rut. No progress at all in all fronts of my life. Is it only me or does this happen to others as well? I hate to be saying this every year but here it goes again – Let’s hope 2013 will be a better year for me.

I need a change and I need to start taking some actions to make the change happen.

I haven’t been updating recently but I’ve got a good reason for that – I’ve found a job. Before I jump for joy and strike off my #1 item on my Day Zero Project list, I have to highlight that it’s only a 4-month contract job.

Yeah I know, I said before that I’m not interested in taking up a short-term contract job but I guess being broke during the festive season isn’t exactly fun. Moreover there’s the possibility of converting this contract to a permanent one when it expires in March. I just hope I do well enough to warrant a conversion. Of course, there are other factors to consider but I shall not delve too much into it here.

Besides landing myself a job, I also turned one year older in November. Older but certainly not wiser. This year hasn’t been a great year for me at all. I’m not sure if things will pick up in 2012 and honestly, I dare not hold my hopes too high. I just want to be happy. That’s all.

There are so many things to update but I haven’t got the time to do it. Hopefully I’ll find the time and discipline to do it over this weekend. Weekends are so precious to me now and I really miss the days when I could stay up till the wee hours to read or watch TV.

I guess it’s just too bad that money doesn’t fall from the sky.